Someday
When I feel I’m worthy
I will tell you who I really am
Express how I truly feel deep down
Instead of hiding behind that phony smile
When I feel confident
I will undoubtedly have no qualms
To convey to you what I deserve and want
Not merely accepting that which I hate or dislike
When I feel courageous
I will say what I want with valiance
Impervious to fear of being looked down
Resolute in my faith on the vision of love in my mind
When I feel I’ll be fine
Whether you agree or think me crazy
For holding on to a heart that belongs not to now
Not fazed that I’m nurturing an illusion or a miscalculation
When love’s all that matters
Neither forced, partial nor restricted
Not dictated by what insignificant others think
I will live with this love in my life, blissfully at peace
When love is all that matters
When I feel undeniably fine
Courageously confident
When I am worthy
Someday
If only you had stayed
Instead, you’re gone
There’s no someday
© Anna Jailene Aguilar
Original poem first appeared here.